Do you ever feel like a failure as a follower of Christ? There are days I do. My walk with Jesus so often feels like an emotional roller coaster. One day I’m madly in love and would follow him to the ends of the earth, whereas the next day I’m once again stuck in the selfishness of my humanity. This up and down leaves me living with feelings of fear and defeat.
But I rest in this; I am not alone. As a matter of fact, one of the greatest Old Testament men lived the same way. David.
Acts 13:22 says “I have found in David the son of Jesse a man after my heart, who will do all my will.”
In my mind, this conjures up an image of someone that was near perfection; it makes me feel inadequate and unlikely to ever bear that title. Yet when I read through the Psalms, I realized that David isn’t so unlike me and you. There is a recurring theme in David’s Psalms: High on the mountain of God, low in the pit of despair. David battled with his emotions and circumstances the same as you or I.
The third Psalm is the first to bear David’s name and it begins like this…
“O Lord, how many are my foes! Many are rising against me; many are saying of my soul, there is no salvation for him in God.” Psalm 3:1-2
You see, right out of the gate David is facing a battle. His enemies are hot on his tail, shouting in his ear that even God can’t save him. But it’s David’s response that demonstrates how he earned his title.
“But you, O Lord, are a shield about me, my glory, and the lifter of my head. I cried aloud to the Lord, and he answered me from his holy hill.” Psalm 3:3-4
David surely felt overwhelmed but he refused to live in defeat and fear. Instead, he called upon God, laying his burdens down and trusting in the truth of his promises of steadfast love and victory. And the results say it all…
“I lay down and slept; I woke again, for the Lord sustained me.” Psalm 3:4
His circumstances are breathing down his neck and what does David do? He takes a nap! David was so confident in God’s ability to sustain him that he had no room for fear or worry. He knew as long as he continued to live and breath, God would be his champion.
You see, David was not known as a man after God’s own heart because he was a superstar Christian who never faltered, rather he earned this title because no matter how many valleys he faced, he always climbed back up the mountain to rest in God’s presence.
Are you facing circumstances that seem impossible? You are not alone, David stood exactly where you are today, on the verge of winning or losing but when he chose to trust God he found victory beyond compare.
Take time and read through the next 34 Psalms. My bet is that by the time you get to the end you too will be able to take a nap, falling asleep to the tune “Victory in Jesus”!